I Have So Much More To Say, But…

I have decided to stop writing about being M’s mom in a public format.

Each day I continue to sit in front of my computer and write, and I watch as the words still seem to spill from my fingertips. It’s as if for years what my mind couldn’t figure out, somehow – my fingertips did.

And I am grateful to have a permanent record of this journey to allow M’s adult eyes to some day read about my thoughts, prayers, concerns, and love for him when he was a teenager.  One day I think he’ll realize how deep my love for him runs.

I am proud of what we all created with majormomma.com. The surprises that came from sharing my story about being a mom to were life-changing. I am a stronger person and a better mom. Part of me thinks I needed to find out that I had the strength in me all along, but I’d by lying if I said I figured it out on my own.

Every person who read my blog helped me get stronger for M. (Yes, even the teenagers who sent me death threats – I learned from you, that my fight needs to continue.)

So many family members, friends, and strangers have been right along with me from the beginning. I have marveled at comments between others who care and who share in my fight. I am grateful and hopeful. Thank you, everyone.

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And since it is now impossible for me to stop writing, stop caring, and stop sharing what I am learning on this journey –  I will continue in a different format.

My old adversary (Facebook) has become a new ally. I created a page called “Major Momma.” My little Major Momma Facebook page is where I will continue to share my efforts on this crusade to help parents get strong for the battle.

Feel free to find me there – I won’t be writing specifically about M – but you all know that deep down, I actually am.

Love, j

 

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5 thoughts on “I Have So Much More To Say, But…

  1. I have been following for some time. I wish your family the very best, and I hope things work out for you and M and your family.

  2. I applaud your decision. The best to you. My sons are both doing the best they can with the situations they are in because of the choices they have made. I am so proud of them.

  3. I left a thoughtful reflection on your decision somewhere, but do not see it here.I think it had to do with Word Press insistence on credentials. I completely understand your changing directions and thank you for stating so. I’ll sign up for you and with you there and look forward to continued messages.

  4. Hi Jennifer,

    I’m sorry to see you end this blog. You were sharing thoughts and feelings that so many parents have and I’m sure you were helping many realize that they are not alone with these same issues.

    It is wonderful that we will find you on Facebook and twitter. Our teens are a precious commodity and strong parents like you set a great example of how sometimes we need to make the hard choices so that our children do not lose they life that they were meant to have.

    From experience, once you cross that line from substance abuse to full addiction, there is no turning back and your life is changed forever. The more teens we can spare from this, the better. but it is parents facing the reality of their situation and getting the help they need.

    Thank you for all that you have done to share your story.

  5. I’m sorry to see your blog end, but wish all the best for M and you and your family. You are an amazing mother…please don’t forget that! Thank you for sharing your journey…you gave me strength in mine. I felt isolated and unable to share my difficulties with anyone around me…you gave me a place to feel not so alone. Please know you are welcome to email me or visit me at my happy place…redstarroost@blogspot.com…at any time. 🙂

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