I have decided to stop writing about being M’s mom in a public format.
Each day I continue to sit in front of my computer and write, and I watch as the words still seem to spill from my fingertips. It’s as if for years what my mind couldn’t figure out, somehow – my fingertips did.
And I am grateful to have a permanent record of this journey to allow M’s adult eyes to some day read about my thoughts, prayers, concerns, and love for him when he was a teenager. One day I think he’ll realize how deep my love for him runs.
I am proud of what we all created with majormomma.com. The surprises that came from sharing my story about being a mom to M were life-changing. I am a stronger person and a better mom. Part of me thinks I needed to find out that I had the strength in me all along, but I’d by lying if I said I figured it out on my own.
Every person who read my blog helped me get stronger for M. (Yes, even the teenagers who sent me death threats – I learned from you, that my fight needs to continue.)
So many family members, friends, and strangers have been right along with me from the beginning. I have marveled at comments between others who care and who share in my fight. I am grateful and hopeful. Thank you, everyone.
And since it is now impossible for me to stop writing, stop caring, and stop sharing what I am learning on this journey - I will continue in a different format.
My old adversary (Facebook) has become a new ally. I created a page called “Major Momma.” My little Major Momma Facebook page is where I will continue to share my efforts on this crusade to help parents get strong for the battle.
Feel free to find me there – I won’t be writing specifically about M – but you all know that deep down, I actually am.